Man

It has been a really long time.

I might pick up writing here again. I miss my xanga.

But I just wanted to stop by and make a note; I'm very excited. I have my first photo shoot this sunday.

Yes!

Baby, you make my heart beat faster...

Current Music: The Distillers - Coral Fang
Current Mood: Weak but happy
Band of Today: The Distillers, and Riot GRRRL bands

Amy!
I love you baby!

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So what to write about...
School: I set two of my test dates, hopefully next week Tobe will have the Febuary test schedual so I can set my last three

I set
Reading (GED): January 29th, 1:30pm @ Monroe
Soc.Studies (GED): January 30th, 1:30pm @ Monroe

I would   have set my science but those were the only two test days left  in January and I don't want to do more then one test in a day... I'm afraid of being tired or something and not getting as good a score as I can possibly get.

So next Week I'm setting my Science, Writing, And Math test dates. By the end of Febuary I could possibly have my GED!
I can't believe I wasted so much time in highschool. I Started  my GED program January 3rd, 2007, I  could have my GED within two months... instead of wasteing so much time in Highschool. The only good things that came out of highschool were my friends. I met so many wonderful people there (especially Amy... I love you baby You're effin' amazing. ) and Drama club (where I actually got to know Amy). But now I'm growing up and I'm so happy about everything in my life right now.

I have my school under control
Possiblities for jobs
A girlfriend who means the world to me
Friends

 The thing that would be more cool would be to have an appato of my own, that would kick ass... but I can't until I'm 18. Well... this summer, but my name wont be on the lease until I'm 18. And a car, I'm working on that whole driving thing though. I have the book I just need to read it so I can get my permit, so I can learn to drive so I can get my Licence. Then I can get a job and go get a car and be a happy Kiila =D

Man I'm so weak though, like it's such an effort just to type or keep my arms up slightly. I need vitamens. Like last night I was chewing ice, a lot you know and Amy was like "what's up with you and ice tonight", I think I'm anemic right now like hardcore. I'm so dizzy lately... and I want to sleep but I can't because I'm so restless in my sleep I wake up more exausted then I was when I went to bed.

It's probably great for bruning calories haha, woo? Fuck, no I wanna sleep man!
I had like two nightmares last night.
I don't know I just can't sleep right now... That sucks but they will go away or I'll get to the point I'm just so exausted My body will drop and I'll sleep like 6 - 8 hours really deep and wake up with tons of energy. I run my body to hard, but only when no one notices.

So I heard the ice cream parlor is finally open and hiring, and CTC (local grocery store) is hiring. Tomarrow since I don't have school I'll go at like noonish and apply at both places. Walking around cheney is great excersize, even if it is subzero out there. >_< I'll bundle up in Amy's ugly white sweatshirt, my thin little hoodie and my coat, and put on two pairs of pants, and my boots, hopefully I wont die. I should probably wear a hat too... It sounds like I'll look like frosty the snowman but I really wont XD I'll look mildly bumesque in Amy's white sweat shirt, and a coat but I'll be fine when I get there.

I need to get to the montenveal hotel monday and see if they are still hiring.

Sometimes I feel like I'm being pushed into the real world too fast and I want to back up and hide behind my daddy and make it all go away. But I'm too stubborn to give up, so I keep going foreward and currently it keeps getting better. I'm just scared I think.

OOH! I almost forgot, Tobe is gunna hook me up with someone I can talk to about getting grants to start collage this spring quarter!

So as my T-shirt says "FUCK YEAH!"

And that's my life currently... ^_^

Current Mood: Cold
Current Music: None
Band Of today: DSI and Silver Ash

Yo

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I"m at school and killing time 'cause I missed a bus... so yeah...
Fuck. memo to me; Get ID... So far I've passed 3/5 pretests... <3

I NEED my ID so I can get my GED...Grrr
Then I can go to Collage! At 17, that's a year later then I was planning back when I dropped out in 7th, but It's still way erlier then I would have... had I stayed in highschool...

Highschool was a waste of time, except I met a lot of cool amazing friends there ^_^ <3
And Amy
And Vicky...

Old school Diru yo!

Shinya and Die-sama ^_^ Kawaii!
Man... if shinya were a girl...
Shinya and Dita Von Teese would be the only women
I'd leave my girlfriend for XD

I'd still kill to see that tour
I wish They hadn't become so ...different
They are still amazing
But that's the Time I wish I could have seen them live

Kyo-Kun
Kyo-Kun!

Adoreable
Ball of Vulgar and cute
in a handy
Travel size ness!
(Okay so he's still taller then me... but...shudd up!)

SHINYA

Duringthe obscure shoot...
Man I love that video
And I love teh Shinya-ness
WHY CAN'T YOU BE A WOMAN?!

Everyone was dancing

Current Music: AFI - The Art Of Drowning
Current Mood: Good Meh, but meh none the less
Band of Today: MUCC

It's true!
No matter what ^_~

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SO incase your not on my myspace, and you haven't heard.
According to the teacher of my GED prep course, because of my high reading scores, I could probably currently pass 4/5 GED tests

Three of the tests are Reading
One is Writing (Again High reading scores + I'm a writer)
One is math (the only one I'm scared about. I'm really bad at math)

I just really have  to work on math, and do a little brush up studying and I think I'll easily get that paper!

I'm also currently looking for a job. Yesterday we missed our third bus out of Cheney because even if we booked it, there was No way we could have gotten down to a bus stop to catch the 65 in time. We were at my grandparents stealing their want adds and studying which ones we could apply for (amy and I). So eventually we just walked to the Effin Pub and caught the bus up at the collage. Grr though, that was really annoying. I missed 3 busses into spokane, and when I finally did get to My School there was 30 minuets left in the day. -_-

My teacher was in good humor though, so he wasn't like "Your wasting my time showing up so late, blah blah blah", he also gave me another test to complete. I think it's to decide weather I need the Prep course or not. Meh.

So Now I'm trying to get my father UP OUT OF BED (grrr -_-), so I can go to the social sacurity office to get my Card (ordered?) and then I get to head off to my school, finish tests. Catch the bus BACK to the plaza and then catch a bus out to Airway heights, where my girlfriend lives.

Atleast I get to see Amy today though, that makes me happy. She's so wonderful.

anyways I'm leaving now... so yes...

This so wasn't what I was going to write about but hey, it work!

A magic made for Tragic Minds

Current Music: Daughtry - It's not Over
Current Mood: tired
Band of today: Daughtry, MYV

Don't eat cows
Eat me ;)

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So I think my grandmother probably deffinately figgured out, or is figguring out I'm a Lesbian. It saves me the awkwardness of having to come out to her. Before those Grandparents, telling someone has never been odd for me... just to that side of the family. Yey for dropping hints.

 This is just a really quick update, there was something I wanted to talk about. But thinking about it makes me feel sick and I can't even talk about it right now. memories that keep me up late at night, thanks to spending a day watching law and order on mom's bed with Amy and Missa, I have insane nightmares (not scary so much as painful).

In other news, I spent like 15 minuets sitting in the bus plaza against a wall talking to SarahFace (My best scene friend) talking about
a vagina wall. It's not an overly odd convorsation for me, however, for me and SarahFace it was. We spent a lot of time down town yesterday hanging out at the Emperian, and looking for her scene friends.

I got insulted by gansta chicks  XD that was laughable at best.

So happy new years everyone!
Have a great time doing what your doing, I'm going to party... yey party

so yeah, that's all I feel like typing about,

So pictures!
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Beautiful Garbage
Beautiful Dresses

Have you ever felt so used up as this?

We found george!

Yey

Trying to do it right this time around